Many times in my life I have been shown humility. Many times I have fought that demon that causes my ego to get ahead of me and many times that has been a harbinger of doom. When i try to control my life it usually has a bad outcome. If i think I’m in control it is a good sign I’m not. I have recently attended a therapy session, (yes even superheroes need to get their head on straight) that allowed me a moment to see into my own head. My head is a lot like a circus right now.

Once you get passed the carnival rides, the clowns jumping out of the tiny car and roller coaster and tilt-a-whirl, there is a humble man. The man is watching the excitement around him. He takes it all in as if to say he has seen it a thousand times. When I reached him he smiled and welcomed me to sit with him and watch a while. He would point out some of the more exciting things, like daredevils on motorcycles, fire breathing exhibitions and other things, but my focus kept turning to him.

There were lots of children running around screaming and giggling and shouting to each other. They would run from ride to ride, booth to booth. They had cotton candy and hot dogs, and chocolate. They had soft drinks and licorice and all of them were in a land of make believe but soaking it in, enjoying in their mind the feeling of what heaven must be like. Suddenly, they all came to a stop and went and sat in front of the man. he talked about how much fun they were having and asked each questions about their experience and listened to each as if they had the secret to life. He rose to speak and all were intently ready for him to tell us all about how this world works. He rose, smiled told every one to enjoy the show and walked away. He was sad in a way and looked as if he was not long for this world. He disappeared into the crowd and then faded away. I want to find him but the children began running around again. He vanished without a trace. He left in my heart a moment of peace. One that made me realize that life is so much richer if you take a moment to sit and watch it. Not wanting to make ti happen in your time or your spirit but just to sit and watch as life unfolds.

Suddenly I hear the man across from me tell me in my therapy session.

“God will reveal what God wants to heal.”

This was a moment of true clarity for me. I remember driving home and thinking of the man sitting in the carnival. Is it too much to presume that God was sitting next to me watching life? I’m not sure, but I know now that I need to sit and watch life a little while and enjoy the gifts of that life a little more. That was taught to me by a humble man that loved to be a part of life.

[photo courtesy of meagan]